Heaven knows how bitter I am.

This was a lyric from Orange and Lemons’ Heaven Knows (Angel has flown). I’ve been pondering some time about how I would be happy with my current situation in life. I guess asking other people of what to do is not the answer. They can give me lots of ideas but I can never do it myself. Easier said than done, i may say. I am the only one who can understand myself and I am the one who can help myself. Friends are just there to back us up. But whatever, I am still finding my own way to cope up to this situation. I am still sad but now I am loving myself more, so I am barely breathing. I don’t even know why love needs the right time too. I am just afraid of coming to the right time but without the right love anymore. I am afraid of being left behind again. I am afraid of everything that could hurt me. Who isn’t? Please pray for me. I hope I’ll get by.